Time is just a game I play
It’s written on the ocean’s waves
Circling beyond my brain
Something I could not contain
Something I could not contain
I know it and I cannot stray
The part of me I cannot break
The loss of you beyond the gray
I’m sticking to the chosen ways
I’m sticking to the chosen ways
I picture you inside my brain
Reminding me to say my grace
Reminding me to be amazed
I missed ...
Sometimes I feel like I’m in heaven now. It comes in small doses: a tender kiss from my wife, a rapturous laugh with my whole family, a soft and pillowy snowfall, a moment of epiphany. Time stands still and you catch a glimpse – if only for a moment – of what it is like to be in wonder. It’s hard to believe it’s happening when it happens. Heaven is never what you thought or hoped it was going to be. It catches you by surprise.
Jesus said, “the Kingdom has come near/is at hand,” but ...
Once you have experienced your first big grief, you live your whole life looking back on that thing. You also spend it looking forward to the rest of life’s losses that will eventually occur. That is why the feeling of anxious anticipation – waiting for the other shoe to drop – is so normal. Life balances itself out. The sum always returns to zero. If things are going swimmingly at the moment, you can be sure a time of want is coming. Don’t worry – once you learn how to grieve, you ...
Loving death
With all of its requisite pains,
Has come
To each of us in its own way
Each secret strand is strange to the others
Though they flow from the same spring
Silent and dark, barren and daring
You always feel
It is your fault:
“What did I do to deserve this?
“There must have been something.”
No one else seems to be suffering
In this way
Though they suffer in secret
With the same questions
When you first woke up, you did not know death
Though you were given directly from it
You were born ...
One more spiritual practice with which to reckon is the practice of surrender. This may be the most far-reaching and sophisticated part of the spiritual life. It appears there are a million ways we can practice surrender. We can probably be practicing it at all times in all circumstances. Surrender is allowing ourselves to be subject to and even overwhelmed at times by what is happening to us, without wrestling to assert our will on others and our environment. We may think of surrender as “letting ...
What a track for a fall day!
Every kingdom must one day come to an end.
It seems like life is equal parts death and growth. You cannot have one without the other – unbounded growth not pruned back by a little death will become unruly and unmanageable. At the same time, you will not always be moving backwards (experiencing death and loss). There will be a time to burst forth in growth. Don’t be afraid of either. You should learn to make friends with your loss and pain because they have so much to teach ...