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Florist – Shadow Bloom

January 19, 2025

So the rain comes back now After I asked it to You could not come back now Even if I asked you to

So light comes from a time already gone If I could see the future I would lay down Eat a tangerine and make a cup of tea Watch it all happen the same way Watch it all happen slowly

I could have the reasons why But it wouldn’t make anything right Do you really want to know the thing You spend your life trying to find

Go back to what you love the most There’s dark inside the stars, that’s where I go And the spirit realm that calls me in Whisper water from the shadow bloom I don’t have the reasons why But it wouldn’t make anything right Do you even want to know the thing You spend your life trying to find Secrets from the last time you felt alright Loneliness is only the last flower to be picked

It’s the dark part of me now The part that knows what can be felt It’s what our eyes see when we dream Beautiful things where the light comes from

Oh, what a special time I can’t believe it happened at all The spirit days to make hell of Your words inside my head Oh, today is the only day

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